Burning Blue

I wanted to catch your soul, your deepest breath
I look to you and I see tears running by the river,
You live between ghost and shadows,
Sorrow went and came into your life once again.
I became the stranger that you never knew,
Just another voice, another painful thought
Regrets won’t say goodbye, a great misdirection
You were everything I had and yearned
Lying underneath the starry sky I imagined
Can anyone assure that my prayers were heard?
Answers for my love and heart that were left behind
As you changed you were burning blue
Something was wrong with your hopes and fears
I was turning black as I saw you falling away
What it's like not knowing if you'll ever cross my mind?
Abandoned and broken within the uncertainty
Couldn’t stand up, couldn’t relieve you.
I never knew that hell could get so cold
And heaven so sad and empty without you.

Bridges of Love

When we were together everything was possible
We could fly to the stars without leaving your bed
‘cause we belonged together, I used to think.
Nothing was too far, I began to tremble.
I wanted to tear down the walls between us
You were the only one
who could heal my wounds from the past.
Instead, you turned your back on me
And just walked away, what went wrong?
We were building bridges of love
But something burned our future down
I became invisible to your heart and words.
Your trust turned easily to rust and
I’m feeling beaten once again
The bridges of love lie over there, under that mud
I don’t know you anymore although I´ve tried very hard
Ripped my heart right out, I just can’t explain.
It seems I’m alone here, sad and hollow again.
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Sleepless roads

You gave my heart some place to stay for a while
I thought it was maybe another chance for me.
On sleepless roads cries my sleepless soul.
If you were with me that night, before that fight
Angels would come from heaven
And they’d say to you some things you keep deep inside
Don’t you know, I’m nervous still
Do feelings go around by any chance?
Being here alone is sadder than the hope of will
I need answers for all the waiting I’ve done
No excuses nor rain above your sunrise
Please yell that you love me or I’ll be gone
A little bit more confident, a little bit more hateful
A lack of passion, ran out of grace.
Are you gonna miss me when you notice
That I’m not around anymore?
When you realize you are alone in this world?
Would you try to find me
Even when you know I will hate you presence for years?
Could you follow that neverending road?
My sleepless road, my sleepless soul?
Do you believe I even care about your existence or your fears?
Won't catch my feelings
won't torture my hopes and dreams anymore.

Give a fuck

Nuevamente la esperanza se ha encontrado con una pared inpasable. En el mejor de los casos no me derrumbé, pero la pared sigue ahí y simplemente no hay manera de escalarla, tumbarla, rodearla. Al carajo, ojalá este pinche sentimiento sirviera de algo, solo tengo ganas de ahogarme y olvidar todo, pensarme inexistente y pasar caminando entre la gente sin saberme presente.
Ella se lo perdió definitivamente, y con ello, me hizo perder a mí también.
Sin ganas de seguir, sin motivación para demostrar mis capacidades y posibilidades, ¿a quién engaño? no one cares, no one gives a fuck. Me hundo y simplemente de ésta no puede levantarme... en el fondo ya no quiero hacerlo.